i guess it's in my nature to get jealous. to be a wee-bit jealous. call me insecure. wtf i don't care.
isa din ako sa taong banas kapag love life ang pinag-uusapan. hindi ko alam kung bakit... pero magpapaka selfish ako.
pero insecure ako.
i guess dahil sa  tension na i keep losing them before. kaya i tend to get too close, masiyadong nakakasakal. pero now, i've learned to keep distance. to keep MY distance in order for this to work.
but then again, jealousy is killing me.
yes it does. and f*ck me for feeling so lousy... but guess it...
i hate her for being more beautiful than i am (hate to admit it. i do have the looks but she's prettier. hahaha.)
i hate her because i can feel that he still loves her and i can't do anything against that.
i hate her because i'm just being me.
i hate her because i feel that i can never be loved by him the way he loved her. 
and damn it. jealousy's killing me.
it's in the blood.
i blew it 
THRICE. i don't want to blew it again. T_T
* sabi nila kailangan  mong mamili ng taong pagbubuhusan mo ng galit kasi ocne you've done that, you'll see that person as your EQUAL... ^^ naglabas lang ako ng sama ng loob. pero hindi ako galit...
g*go! obvious ba?!
P.S.okay na. hindi na ko galit. narealize ko nang masiyado akong maganda para magalit sa kanya.. hahaha. pati hindi niya naman ako inaano. why worry??? hehehe...
at kung byron (a.k.a. satoshi) adik ka... tandaan mo yan... magpapalit ako ng blog address para di mo ko ma istalkan... hahaha... adik ka!
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