aww. damn too afraid that i'd take the finals in bio lab and lec. oh fuck. T_T i mean i'm not supergirl. although i have passing grades in both lab and lec, it's still not enough to shoot for a 70 flat exemption grade. grrr.. goodness gracious. plus the fact that i sucked in muscle anatomy so i have to make extra bawi for the next exams. T_T

damn got 9/20 and almost the rest of the class passed it saying that it was easy and crap. but God, all of his questions were like (duh?) i don't even know where that alba something was located. i relied solely on my manual and atlas. grrr.. T_T fuck fuck fuck.

on the lighter story, lec prof got extremely mad at us when classmate1 and classmate2 was scolded in front of the entire class.

A. we don't like lec prof not that much, i mean everybody's saying that he's cool and okay but no. i personally find him boring.
B. we concocted several names for our lec prof. i mean yes it's disrecpectful but it's funny too. haha. he reminds us of HARRY POTTER so we ended up naming him [insert his surname] potter and everytime he enters the room, we end up humming the harry potter theme. haha. harry potter and the goblet cells in the squamous epithelium. harry potter and the order of the pharynx.

yeah. XD when sir lab told us that lec prof was getting pissed off we decided to stop torturing him during class hours. brrr.. i'll try to be nicer. i promise i will

i'm starting to doubt THIS.

lately, we've been lax about the relationship part. somehow, we took each other for granted knowing that at the end of the day, there will still be us. but then again, things are starting to get really crazy. he wants me to trust him. but that's not exactly easy seeing how easily he can fall on the pangs of temptations.

i don't want to give him a hard time. summer classes are hard enough for both of us. grr... still, i'm holding on. we can do this. see?

i don't know. i really don't know.

i thought distance makes the heart go fonder???

lately, all i ever did was to question his love.maybe he'll get tired of it, maybe he won't. still...
pepau's great. he gave me nothing but the best 10months of my life.

but somehow... i'm starting to have doubts. i see ourselves divided by a glass wall. and the gap just keeps on growing. growing...

still, i can't question my feelings for him. i know he loves me and i feel exactly the same. i just get so afraid of getting hurt. i guess...

we'll pull this through. TOGETHER.

so depress. sound trip + chocolate obsession to drown away depression...

cross it off my list. the puerto trip + the PSP

i don't want to complain. maybe i didn't do my best. but before i accept failure, i have to shift the blame. i get good grades. i don't spend my college life wasted. (like my other hs friends.) i have a choice you know. i'm a good student. a good daughter...

but f*ck... what more do they want???

the bitch doesn't have to earn it. she has everything she wants. all she have to do is invent an alibi and *poof* she gets what she wants...

i have to work my ass off for this. for what?

i don't have a mac ibook. neither a 4gig ipod. this was the first time i ever asked for anything. first time i wanted something. and i have to earn it. major disappointment when i didn't get it. missed it with a few effin' points.

FUCK. heavens i want to die. after i exerted a lot of effort...

if i have to spend all my effin' money for a PSP. i will.

P.S.
to that super duper cool teacher who gave me a 2.0 for psych 10, eff up!! i know i did my best. i passed all my requirements on time and you didn't heard a single complain from me. I AM WORTH MORE THAN A DOS...

excited. too damn excited

talked to cha thru ym. inviting me to a galera trip on may2-4. soo excited. 1 problem though. still have doubts if mom will allow me to go there. i mean. yes i'm 18 but i have this feeling that she won't allow me. still, it won't hurt to ask. i mean there's nothing to lose ayt?

awww... excited. when she said that it was one important matter. i thought she'd make drama or something. awww

EXCITED. brr..

P.S.
i wish that there will be no friday summer class sched.

april 6. and i almost forgot that it will be our 10th monthsarii today. awww... that i didn't tell him. he'll make tampo big time if ever...

FBC training was really exhausting. aww... but it was fun. new friends + new ates and kuyas. they really were great (although i was really terrified with the way they yelled at us) haha... but then again, i know that it was all part of the training.

tsk... just a week to go before my summer classes... grrrr....

can't feel the summer mode...

P.S.
the post title is the line of the song that i'm currently listening right now.

tatay's a bit better now (i think) mom says the doctor already gave a thumbs-up = he's okay na... TB all gone...

still, the family will be praying for him. oh how i wish he'd stop smoking...

it made me think. really think about my actions. two of my titas are on the kick too. i mean, i know cigarettes can be addictive but then i have to stop... really. NOW. before it's too late...

i got the habit when i was still in highschool. peer pressure + curiosity made me do it. at first it was just a stick or too... but there was a point that i seriously became addicted to it (after break-ups, whenever i feel lonely or something, i'd always light a stick and you know that i don't like break-ups)

but i'm clean now. when pot+ chee met up with sarah, i didn't light a single stick (got contented with 2 puffs) haha. at least there's an improvement somewhere...

NO SMOKING FOR ME...

kanina. magkasama kami. isang pseudo-date.

hindi ko alam kung bakit pero extra clingy kami sa isa't isa. parang 1 week palang naging kami or something. basta ang special niya. tsk. mahigit sa 3 weeks na kaming di nagkikita. huling nagkita kami, wala pang 2 oras na magkasama. pero ngayon... *sigh*

haha. mula nung naging busy ako, ngayon lang ulit. now or never. ginawa ulit namin ang paboritong ginagawa namin... FOOD TRIP.

taya ako. minsanan lang dahil lagi naman siyang nanglilibre kaya for a change, ako naman.

sa TUDING'S kami nagpunta. home of the famous porkchops. hahaha. pareho kaming naadik dun.
hanggang nung gabi, tinetext niya ako at nagthathank you dahil sa tuding's... awww.... ang sweet...

okay. okay. okay.

so really HAPPY dahil sa online viewing ng grades. grrr... parang kanina lang, 8 units lang ang released pero ngayon, + natsci2 = 11 units na... XD konting konti nalang mahahatak na PATAAS! haha.. wooo...

I AIM TO GET A DOS...

DOS lang. kahit last sem ay naka chamba ako sa dean's list. hindi ako aasa ngayon.

mahina ako sa physics. oo. haha. no doubt. pero nakaya ko. *rawr* sa tulong ni jean at ng all-nighter ko. haha. hindi rin ako nakapagpakitang gilas sa chem dahil nabobo ako sa multiple choice. kaya hindi ganun kataas.

napatunayan ko pa ding kaya ko. kahit na mahirap. haha. sa tulong ng DVD marathon + friends. KAYA KO! haha.. ang sarap mag rawr. haha.. wooo...

DOS lang makakatikim ako ng REWARD. ang aking pinakaaasam na 8-gig pink PSP. haha. i swear na kapag nandito na siya, hindi ko siya mapapakawalan. hahaha.

grabe. i feel like i'm such a kid. back to the old school days na hindi kami basta basta binibigyan ng something ni ina. DAPAT PINAGHIHIRAPAN. haha... grabe...

ang sarap ng feeling. oo... konti nalang...

sa 11 units ko, ang GPA ko ay pumatak na sa 2.114 (salamat sa NATSCI) haha... at dahil may psych10 pa at comm ii (ayokong magyabang pero pinaghirapan ko yung comm na yun) haha... tapos dahil medyo panganib ba ang nararamdaman sa chem lab (na 1 unit lang naman)

NAEEXCITE AKO!!! PANGAKO!!!! hahaha.

*pag di ko pa 'to naabot, maiiyak talaga ko*

okay. so it's summer. i really need an outlet. my starbucks planner sucks. i just have one too many thoughts that it couldn't possibly cram them all in just a few lines.

removed the comment box, the chat box. everything. no darling i won't link.

I'M NOT GONNA BLOG TO IMPRESS. not anymore.

so multiply's still alive and kicking.

a little tweaking and i'm home